The other day I had a breakdown while I was out. One of those dramatic, I don’t know why I feel the urge to cry but I do moments. I was able to rush to my car and play music while I broke down in peace. I still couldn’t tell […]
Becoming Myself
Year of Me: Choosing Life on My Own Terms
It has recently come to my attention that my life has potential. Not in the you can do anything kind of way. We all have potential. But in the way that I can do whatever I want, yet I’m doing nothing. I want to do things and try things, yet […]
The Sacred Return: Coming Back To Yourself Without Burning Everything Down
Your 30s are a different kind of awakening.It’s not loud like your late 20s or as frustrating as your teens. There are no fireworks, no dramatic rebirth—you just slowly start to see things differently. It’s a slow burn, arriving quietly. First, your body feels off. You realize you’ve been performing, […]
The Art of Sensual Living: Reclaiming Confidence Through Everyday Rituals
When we think of sensuality, we often reduce it to sex. But sensuality is so much more than that. It is the relationship you have with your body, your mind, and the way you move through the world. I lost my sensuality through depression and toxic relationships. When I finally […]
Grounded Mysticism: The Art of Stopping
I am tired of rushing. The go‑go lifestyle people are chasing has grown tiresome. I felt like I was constantly moving, yet going nowhere—doing the same thing over and over again, looking for something new, only to end up repeating the same patterns in a different place. It became tedious. […]
My Most Liberating No!: How I’m Decentering Men
“Look, either come or don’t — I don’t care. This is my vacation I invited you on, not our vacation,” I said into the phone. I was over it. The cat-and-mouse game. The constant tug-of-war for attention. It was exhausting. “See, when you talk like that, it kills the mood,” […]
Becoming Her: A Journey of Autonomy, Rebirth, & Sterilization
A Dream That Wasn’t Mine Standing before a dark chestnut front door on a beautiful midsummer day, a well-manicured lawn stretches behind me, dotted with freshly planted flowers. I hear children joyfully playing inside. Somehow, I know they’re waiting for me. Taking a deep breath, I unlock the door and […]
How Dining Alone at a Fancy Restaurant Helped Me Heal My Inner Child
Growing up, I didn’t go to many fancy restaurants. We didn’t dress up. We rarely did big celebrations. It was always simple—kinda thrown together. As a child, I never thought much about it. I just assumed we weren’t a “fancy” family. I remember one night—me, my sister, and my father […]
The Art of Dressing: How Getting Dressed is the Biggest Act of Self Love
When I was spiraling, the last thing I wanted to do was put together an outfit. It seemed pointless. Why do all that fussing over myself when I was “just going” somewhere? The grocery store, work, errands—it didn’t matter. I’d tell myself I didn’t care who saw me. That mindset […]
Chapter 33: Moving with Intention
Throughout my life I’ve been very Type B. Floating through life, almost in a trance, believing that whatever was meant for me would eventually manifest. I thought things just happened. And yes, things did happen—but never the things I actually wanted. Looking back, I can’t blame anyone else. I was […]